The most beautiful grandchild ever.... :)

Life and all that stuff

I became a grandmother June 24, 2006. Even though my granddaughter is thousands of miles away, I feel an incredible tug of love and connection with her. I long to have her near me, to hold her, to walk her around my home and tell her about the moonflowers, the angel's trumpets, the lantana and all the wonderful flora surrounding us. I want to introduce her to my beloved, to our animal friends, to the wonders of life in South Georgia. I want to teach her how to be strong, loving and kind. I want to be her grandmother.

It is amazing, even though I haven't seen her yet, nor even a picture of her (I await one as I am typing this) I am certain she is the most beautiful baby living. Just as I was sure of the same thing about my own babies when they were born. Love creates enormous beauty.

My granddaughter is in the hospital right now. She was readmitted 2 days ago because of jaundice. Her bilirubin level was 30 on admission, but is now down to 16, so it seems all will be well. I ache for my son and daughter-in-law though -- they are so far away, and so young, and I know they are frightened and exhausted. A baby makes you so vulnerable. Nothing that happens to you in this world can hurt nearly as much as something that hurts your baby. No fear is more frightening than the fear you feel on behalf of your child.

My granddaughter. I am in love. Again.

Pictures to follow as soon as available.

My heart is full.

to Max

Clothed in darkness
she opened like a flower.
I partook.
Hours later, I am still drunk.